Risky Place

    After months of working the program and leading a structured life I was starting to feel a little bored. Read an ad in the paper about an Irish rock band playing at a pub in town. risky place to go. My daily meditation read, "Let go of your excessive carefulness. Let the spirit guide you." I'm not sure if that was a sign or what but I decided to get out. Walked into the pub at 8:30. It was packed. Made my way to the bar and ordered a Coke. I felt fine, no urge to drink. I had a way out and home along with my list of numbers to call if things got out of hand. After a few minutes of listening to the band I felt great. Almost as if I weren't an alcoholic. A feeling of normalcy came over me that I haven't had in a long time. I stayed for 45 minutes, enjoying the band thouroghly. I know that this type of behavior could lead to a relapse, but I walked away with such a good feeling!